One of the BIG selling features of our house (at least for me) was the big tub in the master bedroom. I have not taken a bath in years, and was so excited to FINALLY be able to so. This may sound crazy, but I'm a water person. I truly believe a lot can be solved/fixed with a shower or bath. If you are not feeling well, the steam helps clear your head. The warm water is like therapy that helps relax and relieve body aches and pains.
Anyway, I got to use our bath a grand total of two times before finding out I was pregnant. TWO! After that I was nervous to get in the tub because so many things you read caution against it. Well, now that I'm well into my third trimester (17 days away from due date to be exact) I have found myself tense and not able to rest/relax well. Go figure?!? I talked to my doctor and she gave me the OK, so I decided to take a bath. Not just any bath though. I was going to have the works! I used bath salt that Steve and I got while on vacation last year, lavender oil, candles, music. It was AWESOME! There may have been a few times that I almost fell asleep. When I finally got out I looked at the clock and realized that I had been in there for over an hour! Completely oblivious to the outside world! It was CRAZY!
I don't remember the last time I let myself take a whole hour just for me and me alone. I mean my mind was completely shut off to the world. Steve was watching Hud and I didn't have a single worry. Seriously, a giant fireball could have been head toward our house and I wouldn't have been able to care less.
Being a mom, it is so easy to forget to take care of yourself. You are so busy constantly worrying about what everyone else needs/wants. Hudson is a growing active two year old and well, my husband has a whole other set of things he needs. I'm talking about running errands, cleaning up after everyone, cooking, being emotionally supportive of everyone around me.... On top of that I have the labor and delivery of our sweet baby girl hanging over my head. I'm not scared, but I'm not looking forward to it either. Don't get me wrong, I want Alexis to get here, I just wish I could skip L&D. There are so many things to do before the arrival of a new baby. I've been taking my time getting everything done, but that doesn't mean it isn't always in the back of my mind. It's just a little stressful....
I don't think it's selfish to take time for yourself at all. How are you supposed to be there for others if you aren't on top of your game? Men seem to be able to carve out time for things they want to do or enjoy doing, but it is sooo much harder for women and I will say especially mommies. So, my advice to every woman (and man) is to make sure you get some "You Time" at least once a week where you can decompress. Relax. Unwind. Clear your mind. Your whole family will thank you for it later when you aren't snapping at everyone or getting ready to boil over. I recently started doing this (not always a bath, but just getting away) and it has done wonders for me. I am a much happier, more loving wife and mother when I have a few minutes to myself.
TAKE A BATH! It does the body, mind, and soul good!
Friday, February 28, 2014
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Mixed Emotions....
It's so weird to think that at my next appointment I will be farther along with Alexis than I ever was with Hudson (he came right at 38 weeks). Part of me is sooooo ready to meet my little girl and for the next chapter of our lives to begin. The other part of me wants time to slow down so I can enjoy every single moment being a mommy to the most precious boy on earth.
Today, has been a roller coaster of emotion. I was anxious before my doctor appointment and very curious to see if we were any closer to meeting our baby girl. Then after getting the news that not much had changed other than she had dropped down quite a bit, I was honestly a little disappointed. REALLY!?!?! That's it?!?! I'm 37 weeks pregnant. She's considered full term. Lets get this party started! I started researching anything and everything I could do to get things moving along (pineapple, walking, squats....) within reason. This afternoon I was looking at videos on labor inducing accupressure points!
Then this evening as Steve, Hud & I were eating dinner I started to freak out a little. Do I want to rush this time? I so love my family of three (and know Ill love my family of four just as much if not more) but why am I in such a hurry for such a drastic change to our lives? It also started to hit me that this is more than likely the last time I will ever be pregnant. Steve and I have had casual conversations about how many kids we would like to have...but I think we both agree that we would be so happy as a family of four. If more children were in the plans we would need a clear sign from God. Anyway, the point is it brings tears to my eyes thinking about how I might never again feel a little baby kick in my stomach. I might never again get to see my babies heartbeat for the first time during an ultrasound. I might never have to pack a hospital bag with newborn clothes and blankets that had just been washed with Dreft, or sterilize bottles.... The part that gets me the most is that I might never again have the privilege of growing and loving and nurturing another human being again. The excitement and anticipation, the mystery, and the secret of knowing your baby well before anyone else is almost over for me....
While I'm ready to have some form of MY LIFE back and not have to wear maternity clothes EVER AGAIN... I am also going to miss pregnancy. Weird right? I guess it really is bittersweet.
To be completely honest, the actual delivery is starting to make me nervous. Up until now I hadn't thought much about delivery this time around. It was just an obstacle to get throughout so I could get to the other side and see my baby. NOW, I am starting to really think about all the details and discomfort and possibilities of what COULD happen. I'm not going to lie, it has me a little scared.
I know that God has a plan for everything and Alexis will come in HIS perfect timing (not mine). I also know that delivery is just a few hours and He is in completely control. I'm going to give it up to God and just let things happen as He sees fit.
THAT IS ALL.
I AM SO THANKFUL FOR MY LOVING HUSBAND, PRECIOUS SON, HEALTHY DAUGHTER, AND SUPPORTIVE FAMILY AND FRIENDS. LIFE IS GOOD.
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O and PS. Hudson can finally hug! He doesn't just cuddle up next to you and let you hug him. He wraps his little arms around you and squeezes! It is the most amazing feeling on earth!
Today, has been a roller coaster of emotion. I was anxious before my doctor appointment and very curious to see if we were any closer to meeting our baby girl. Then after getting the news that not much had changed other than she had dropped down quite a bit, I was honestly a little disappointed. REALLY!?!?! That's it?!?! I'm 37 weeks pregnant. She's considered full term. Lets get this party started! I started researching anything and everything I could do to get things moving along (pineapple, walking, squats....) within reason. This afternoon I was looking at videos on labor inducing accupressure points!
Then this evening as Steve, Hud & I were eating dinner I started to freak out a little. Do I want to rush this time? I so love my family of three (and know Ill love my family of four just as much if not more) but why am I in such a hurry for such a drastic change to our lives? It also started to hit me that this is more than likely the last time I will ever be pregnant. Steve and I have had casual conversations about how many kids we would like to have...but I think we both agree that we would be so happy as a family of four. If more children were in the plans we would need a clear sign from God. Anyway, the point is it brings tears to my eyes thinking about how I might never again feel a little baby kick in my stomach. I might never again get to see my babies heartbeat for the first time during an ultrasound. I might never have to pack a hospital bag with newborn clothes and blankets that had just been washed with Dreft, or sterilize bottles.... The part that gets me the most is that I might never again have the privilege of growing and loving and nurturing another human being again. The excitement and anticipation, the mystery, and the secret of knowing your baby well before anyone else is almost over for me....
While I'm ready to have some form of MY LIFE back and not have to wear maternity clothes EVER AGAIN... I am also going to miss pregnancy. Weird right? I guess it really is bittersweet.
To be completely honest, the actual delivery is starting to make me nervous. Up until now I hadn't thought much about delivery this time around. It was just an obstacle to get throughout so I could get to the other side and see my baby. NOW, I am starting to really think about all the details and discomfort and possibilities of what COULD happen. I'm not going to lie, it has me a little scared.
I know that God has a plan for everything and Alexis will come in HIS perfect timing (not mine). I also know that delivery is just a few hours and He is in completely control. I'm going to give it up to God and just let things happen as He sees fit.
THAT IS ALL.
I AM SO THANKFUL FOR MY LOVING HUSBAND, PRECIOUS SON, HEALTHY DAUGHTER, AND SUPPORTIVE FAMILY AND FRIENDS. LIFE IS GOOD.
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O and PS. Hudson can finally hug! He doesn't just cuddle up next to you and let you hug him. He wraps his little arms around you and squeezes! It is the most amazing feeling on earth!
Monday, February 24, 2014
37 weeks pregnant with Alexis
I FINALLY GOT MOTIVATED!
TODAY!
Something hit today and I seriously cleaned the entire day. It took me long enough right?!?! I finished washing all of Alexis' things as well as washing 6 additional loads of laundry. I cleaned and sterilized bottles, and pumps. I reorganized some shelves in the kitchen to store everything. I packed some more stuff in our hospital bags. I cleaned our bathroom. I found and got out all the baby bathing supplies and my postpartom recovery supplies. Shoooo this mama is TIRED! :) O and I got to play with Hud for a while! Not too shabby!
At 37 weeks Alexis has defiantly slowed down, but she is still moving around so I'm not worried. I feel pretty good still! Shocking, I know! At this point when I was pregnant with Hudson, I was swollen, achy, couldn't sleep... Not this time. I'm sleeping pretty well. The only swelling I have is in my fingers when I wake up in the mornings, but it seems to go down after an hour or so of getting up. I feel energized, upbeat, and am pretty comfortable! No complaints here.
I wonder if what they say is true about the baby's personality being similar to how they act in utero??? If that's the case, THANK YOU ALEXIS FOR BEING SUCH AN EASY BABY! :) Looks like I'm in for a peace of cake little girl! ;)
Tomorrow is my 37 week appointment. I am not anticipating any earth-shattering news. All I want to know is that Alexis is healthy and my body is at least preparing for D-Day. :) That's all I want. If the doctor says that, this mama will be VERY HAPPY!
****update 2-25-13*****
My doctor appointment went well. I'm healthy and feeling good. Alexis is going great also! She is sitting really low (the doctor says she has dropped a lot) and I am a little over 1cm dilated. Not tons of progress, but I'll take it. As long as Alexis is continuing to do well, I'm fine with anything. As my doctor was leaving the room we discussed the next appointment that will be next wednesday (38+3days) and how we will go ahead and do an ultrasound to make sure fluid levels and placenta are still good.
TODAY!
Something hit today and I seriously cleaned the entire day. It took me long enough right?!?! I finished washing all of Alexis' things as well as washing 6 additional loads of laundry. I cleaned and sterilized bottles, and pumps. I reorganized some shelves in the kitchen to store everything. I packed some more stuff in our hospital bags. I cleaned our bathroom. I found and got out all the baby bathing supplies and my postpartom recovery supplies. Shoooo this mama is TIRED! :) O and I got to play with Hud for a while! Not too shabby!
At 37 weeks Alexis has defiantly slowed down, but she is still moving around so I'm not worried. I feel pretty good still! Shocking, I know! At this point when I was pregnant with Hudson, I was swollen, achy, couldn't sleep... Not this time. I'm sleeping pretty well. The only swelling I have is in my fingers when I wake up in the mornings, but it seems to go down after an hour or so of getting up. I feel energized, upbeat, and am pretty comfortable! No complaints here.
I wonder if what they say is true about the baby's personality being similar to how they act in utero??? If that's the case, THANK YOU ALEXIS FOR BEING SUCH AN EASY BABY! :) Looks like I'm in for a peace of cake little girl! ;)
Tomorrow is my 37 week appointment. I am not anticipating any earth-shattering news. All I want to know is that Alexis is healthy and my body is at least preparing for D-Day. :) That's all I want. If the doctor says that, this mama will be VERY HAPPY!
****update 2-25-13*****
My doctor appointment went well. I'm healthy and feeling good. Alexis is going great also! She is sitting really low (the doctor says she has dropped a lot) and I am a little over 1cm dilated. Not tons of progress, but I'll take it. As long as Alexis is continuing to do well, I'm fine with anything. As my doctor was leaving the room we discussed the next appointment that will be next wednesday (38+3days) and how we will go ahead and do an ultrasound to make sure fluid levels and placenta are still good.
Sunday, February 23, 2014
A perfect weekend before we become a family of four!
The weather was PERFECT this weekend!
We got to spend a lot of quality time together as a family!
We took a long walk.
We played at the park. Watching Hud and Steve play and laugh together is seriously the best thing ever!
We cooked yummy food.
We played with Hud's HotWheels Car.
We watched the UK basketball game.
We played with sidewalk chalk!
Can you tell we did a lot of playing?
THIS WAS THE MOST PERFECT WEEKEND! It was amazing and meant a lot seeing as it is one of our last weekends as a family of 3! We enjoyed every single second and I am so thankful for the time we were able to share together!
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Things that drive me crazy...for no reason!
Every mother is different. I understand that some of these (probably all of these) are just me being weird. haha I'm a Type A, uptight , overprotective, need my own space kind of woman. I love being around other people, but only for a certain amount of time. I need things to be on my terms or I have panic attacks.... I might be a little crazy.... Can you tell? :)
- When people hold babies or Hudson by the crotch. IT SERIOUSLY BOTHERS ME! I have no idea why, but it does.
- When people hold Hudson or babies and let them be mostly horizontal. I can't describe it, but why not just let them sit up. Don't force my child to slouch! IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!
- Here's another weird one.... People who are super eager to change my child's diaper will NEVER change my child's diaper! That is just creepy. I'm the mom. I'll take care of it. You can love on my baby, but when you start asking if you can change his/her diaper and talk about it all the time...it seriously creeps me out. So..... NO. I know there are so many moms who would love to have someone step in and "do the dirty work", but I just can't deal with it. It's my job, I'll do it. Plus, you probably won't do it right and I'm just going to change it again once you leave sooooo there isn't really a point of having anyone help in that department. So, thanks for the offer, but no thank you.
- If you want to help out right after the baby is born, that is FANTASTIC! There are lots of things you can do, but taking my baby from me and telling me to sleep isn't one of them. First, my hormones are all over the place and I'm stressed and overly tired. I may not have slept in 24 hours, but I can't just sleep at the drop of a hat... weird, I know. The best way you can help me, is to do one of many things: bring meals, help with dishes, baby laundry (not mine, or my husbands), vacuum, put dishes away, OR just come and spend time with a socially deprived mommy and talk about how cute her (I mean my) children are!
- PUT MY BABY DOWN! If they don't want you to hold them and are try to wiggle away or are crying, LEAVE THEM ALONE! If you don't put them down ASAP I WILL COME AND TAKE THEM FROM YOU! THAT IS A PROMISE! On that same note, if they want to be held, more power to ya! Hold away, just don't force it.
- Give me a little grace.... I'm hormonal, emotional, tired, stressed, amazed, and exhausted while loving my family and giving as much as I possibly can. I might be flakey for a while. I might hibernate. There is a good chance I will say things I don't mean. There is also a good chance I will say things I mean but shouldn't have said and they will come out rude and blunt. NO FILTER PEOPLE! Don't forget about me or count me out. I'm in survival mode and just need a little time to adapt and adjust. PLEASE UNDERSTAND and be patient with me. Forgive me for my rudeness, my exhaustion..... Give me some grace. This is when I need it the most.
- When I say one thing about what my child needs and someone goes and does the exact opposite even though they heard me OR they disagree with me. I'M THE PARENT, NOT YOU! If you want to be around my child and in my good graces, you can't ignore my decisions or wishes regarding MY child. Please be respectful of that, and we will all be much MUCH happier!
- When people speak for my child.... If I am talking to Hudson, please don't interrupt or tell me what he sees, says, thinks.... I'm trying to communicate with MY BABY. NOT YOU.
- I hate when people ask personal questions about myself (body) or my baby. If you need to know I'll tell you. If not, just be happy your able to love on my child and I keep you in the need to know loop. I don't ask about your lady parts, so please don't ask about mine.
- I'm a private person and don't want the whole world to know every time I'm nursing my baby. While it is a perfectly natural thing to do, I still don't want it shared with everyone. Would you like it if I announced to everyone in the room/restaurant... every time you used the bathroom? NO. So please, be desecrate around me and about what is going on with my body.
- NEVER try to take my child/baby from me.... I will freak out!
- My children will NEVER be too big for me to carry or hold. Don't even try to tell me otherwise, I won't listen.
- STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO. THIS ISN'T MY FIRST RODIO!
- DON'T GIVE ME ADVICE unless I ask for it. I hate HATE HATE being told what to do. I am stubborn and making unwanted comments/suggestions will only make me mad and push me away. (Even though I am sure I am guilty of doing this to my pregnant/mommy friends...oups)
- My children are not your children. They are individuals and I would appreciate it if you wouldn't tell me what to do or how to handle situations because you child did _______.
- Don't be a "know it all". It's just obnoxious.
Reading back over this is funny because non of this makes me angry, but it is stuff that gets on my nerves! haha It's funny what pushes your buttons when you have children or are pregnant.
Monday, February 17, 2014
36 weeks and wishful thinking.....
I am 36 weeks pregnant today with Miss Alexis Grace! My how time flies!
Tomorrow I start my weekly doctor visits and am just hoping that my body is getting ready for D-Day.
Well, If I'm being 100% honest, I would LOVE it if tomorrow my doctor informed me that I was 7cm dilated and ready to have this baby. Wishful Thinking? YES! It's not that I'm overly uncomfortable or in any pain, I just hate the waiting game. It drives me CRAZY! haha Just because I am being optimistic I went ahead and roughly packed a bag...just in case. :)
I'll update tomorrow after my appointment. There is no chance baby is ready. I know I'm just kidding myself. A girl can dream....
*****Appointment Update******
All is well! Alexis is doing great! She is moving and right on track as far as size....
The doctor informed me that at this point Alexis can come whenever she wants, but It probably wont be for at least a week or so. WE WILL SEE!
1cm dilated &50-60% effaced
Tomorrow I start my weekly doctor visits and am just hoping that my body is getting ready for D-Day.
Well, If I'm being 100% honest, I would LOVE it if tomorrow my doctor informed me that I was 7cm dilated and ready to have this baby. Wishful Thinking? YES! It's not that I'm overly uncomfortable or in any pain, I just hate the waiting game. It drives me CRAZY! haha Just because I am being optimistic I went ahead and roughly packed a bag...just in case. :)
I'll update tomorrow after my appointment. There is no chance baby is ready. I know I'm just kidding myself. A girl can dream....
*****Appointment Update******
All is well! Alexis is doing great! She is moving and right on track as far as size....
The doctor informed me that at this point Alexis can come whenever she wants, but It probably wont be for at least a week or so. WE WILL SEE!
1cm dilated &50-60% effaced
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Hold My Hand
You will hold my hand for just a little while, but you will hold my heart forever....
There are a few things that happened recently that I never ever want to forget.
The other night, while hud was sleeping in our room, I went to put him to bed and was holding his hand in the dark. Well, I went to get up and pulled my hand away and his little body jerked. His eyes opened, and his hands went desperately searching for my hand to hold. So, I held his hand as he drifted off to sleep. This happened a few times before I decided it was best to just let him keep my hand until I was absolutely 100% positive he was sound asleep! It was the most precious moment ever. I never want to forget holding his little hand in the dark. He needed me. It was beautiful.
A few days ago we were cuddling on the couch (me and hud) watching Mickey Mouse or Chuggington.... The buzzer went off for the oven so I went to get up. As soon as I started to rise, Hud's little arm shot out and he grabbed my shirt holding me back saying "No, don't go Mommy! Stay here!". It was the most amazing thing to hear. I love that little boy so much! Dinner could probably stand to cook a little longer right...... :) How on earth do you end a perfect moment that you want to last forever?
I love laying in bed before falling asleep and feeling Alexis move and kick against me. I feel such a sense of completion. I love dreaming about who she is and what she will be like as she grows. I love dreaming of her future and the amazingly wonderful person she will be. I love putting my hand on my stomach and feeling the strong powerful movements, knowing she is safe. It is something I feel so honored to be able to feel. It is something special only my children and I will ever share. No one else on earth can feel my babies move, hiccup, kick.... before they are born. I get the privilege to feel them first. Love them first and more than anyone else.
I love my children more than I could ever possibly express. Hudson, you have brought so much joy to my life in the past two years. You are everything good about life wrapped up into this little package that constantly keeps us on our toes. Your daddy and I thought we knew what love was, until you came into our lives and introduced us to this NEW and unfathomable love. Alexis, you are such a blessing and even before your arrival my love for you is so strong. I would do anything for you. I would give up all I have to keep you safe. I can't wait to meet you my little girl.
Steve and I are so BLESSED BEYOND MEASURE to have two beautifully and lovingly created children. God is so good!
There are a few things that happened recently that I never ever want to forget.
The other night, while hud was sleeping in our room, I went to put him to bed and was holding his hand in the dark. Well, I went to get up and pulled my hand away and his little body jerked. His eyes opened, and his hands went desperately searching for my hand to hold. So, I held his hand as he drifted off to sleep. This happened a few times before I decided it was best to just let him keep my hand until I was absolutely 100% positive he was sound asleep! It was the most precious moment ever. I never want to forget holding his little hand in the dark. He needed me. It was beautiful.
A few days ago we were cuddling on the couch (me and hud) watching Mickey Mouse or Chuggington.... The buzzer went off for the oven so I went to get up. As soon as I started to rise, Hud's little arm shot out and he grabbed my shirt holding me back saying "No, don't go Mommy! Stay here!". It was the most amazing thing to hear. I love that little boy so much! Dinner could probably stand to cook a little longer right...... :) How on earth do you end a perfect moment that you want to last forever?
I love laying in bed before falling asleep and feeling Alexis move and kick against me. I feel such a sense of completion. I love dreaming about who she is and what she will be like as she grows. I love dreaming of her future and the amazingly wonderful person she will be. I love putting my hand on my stomach and feeling the strong powerful movements, knowing she is safe. It is something I feel so honored to be able to feel. It is something special only my children and I will ever share. No one else on earth can feel my babies move, hiccup, kick.... before they are born. I get the privilege to feel them first. Love them first and more than anyone else.
I love my children more than I could ever possibly express. Hudson, you have brought so much joy to my life in the past two years. You are everything good about life wrapped up into this little package that constantly keeps us on our toes. Your daddy and I thought we knew what love was, until you came into our lives and introduced us to this NEW and unfathomable love. Alexis, you are such a blessing and even before your arrival my love for you is so strong. I would do anything for you. I would give up all I have to keep you safe. I can't wait to meet you my little girl.
Steve and I are so BLESSED BEYOND MEASURE to have two beautifully and lovingly created children. God is so good!
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Preschool....completely unprepared!!!
We will just call this what it is.... A BIG FAT PARENTING FAIL!
Steve and I have been talking for a long time now about putting Hudson into preschool (2 days a week) this coming fall. We have rationalized it, by saying he needs to be around kids his own age more and learn some social skills (following directions, having a set schedule, participating in group activities, playing with others....). His birthday is October 7, but the cut off for most preschools is October 1st. So, Hud will be in the two year old level when he is three.... I'm actually fine with that. So many people I've talked to said that giving boys that extra year to mature is a good thing.
Anyway, here is my logic. School Starts in the Fall, so registration would/should be around May/June/July. It's preschool for heaven sake. Well this past weekend I was talking to a friend and she mentioned that they already received their acceptance letter into the preschool I had been wanting to send Hudson! Ugh! I started to panic. WHEN DID REGISTRATION START???? When I got home I got on-line to download the application/registration form only to find out that the deadline was January 29th! ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!?!? We are 7 months away from the first day of PRE-SCHOOL, and registration is closed!!!!!!
It looks like Hud won't start preschool now until next year (he will be almost 4 and in the 3 year old class)..... You can bet I'll be stalking the preschool website starting in Mid November so I will be ready when registration begins. I WILL NOT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN!
I mean seriously, who on earth knew you had to register so early? Not this mama! First Time Mom FAIL!
It's all good though, because now I will have the pleasure of having my sweet boy home with me all day every day for another year! ;) I'm in no rush for him to grow up anyway!
Steve and I have been talking for a long time now about putting Hudson into preschool (2 days a week) this coming fall. We have rationalized it, by saying he needs to be around kids his own age more and learn some social skills (following directions, having a set schedule, participating in group activities, playing with others....). His birthday is October 7, but the cut off for most preschools is October 1st. So, Hud will be in the two year old level when he is three.... I'm actually fine with that. So many people I've talked to said that giving boys that extra year to mature is a good thing.
Anyway, here is my logic. School Starts in the Fall, so registration would/should be around May/June/July. It's preschool for heaven sake. Well this past weekend I was talking to a friend and she mentioned that they already received their acceptance letter into the preschool I had been wanting to send Hudson! Ugh! I started to panic. WHEN DID REGISTRATION START???? When I got home I got on-line to download the application/registration form only to find out that the deadline was January 29th! ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!?!? We are 7 months away from the first day of PRE-SCHOOL, and registration is closed!!!!!!
It looks like Hud won't start preschool now until next year (he will be almost 4 and in the 3 year old class)..... You can bet I'll be stalking the preschool website starting in Mid November so I will be ready when registration begins. I WILL NOT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN!
I mean seriously, who on earth knew you had to register so early? Not this mama! First Time Mom FAIL!
It's all good though, because now I will have the pleasure of having my sweet boy home with me all day every day for another year! ;) I'm in no rush for him to grow up anyway!
Monday, February 10, 2014
Never a dull moment...weekend recap
We were planning on having a relaxing weekend with my parents coming in for the day on Saturday to visit. However, it ended up being anything but relaxing! Hud started coming down with what we thought was a cold on Friday morning. By the time my parents got in on Saturday he was coughing, had a runny nose and his cheeks were fire engine red (no fever though). He really fought sleep and finally went down around 9:30pm. We really did have a nice visit during the day. Mom and I went out for mani/pedis so that was fun! Steve and dad got to work on some projects around the house.
Anyway, we all crashed around 11pm. I kept hearing hud cough over the monitor, but it got really bad around 12:30. When I went up to check on him I realized he was drooling all over himself, his cheeks were sooooo red, he was crying, wheezing, and had a horrible barking cough! It was no longer just a nasty cough that was trying to clear his throat. It was seriously painful to hear. I panicked when I realized he was having trouble breathing and rushed downstairs to get Steve. We all ended up piling into the car and gong to the ER where they determined that he had croup. They also said that he had Fifths Disease. Nothing that wouldn't pass for Hudson, but everyone kept telling me that because I am pregnant there was a potentially serious problem (comforting right?). I really didn't believe he had Fifths Disease because he has been having red rashes on his cheeks on and off for months, but hey, what do I know?!?! I'm just his mom.
The ER doctors gave Hud a steroid to help open his airways, instructed me to contact my OB so I could get tested for Fifths Disease and sent us on our way. We got home a little after 2am. WHY DO THESE THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN AT NIGHT?!?!?
Sunday morning Hud seemed to be improving, but we decided we wouldn't be able to attend a work event that evening for Steve because we didn't want Hud around other kids at the sitters. My parents, being the amazing people they are, informed us that instead of heading home that morning they would stay all day and watch Hud for us so we could go. They are seriously the most giving people on earth and I am so thankful for them.
The work event for Steve was actually a charity dance competition. No, we didn't dance, but we got to watch local celebrities dance and complete for the charity of their choice. It was really fun! We got to sample foods from restaurants all over the city and then we had a fantastic meal too. It really was a fun night! I loved seeing everyone's beautiful dresses/gowns! Even though I am 35 weeks pregnant, I loved getting all dressed up! SO FUN!
When we got home, Hud was still awake and looked horrible! I was so bummbed that he didn't seem to be improving. My parents had to leave and head home so Steve, Hud, and I got prepared for another long night. I finally got Hud to sleep around 10! He woke up a lot during the night coughing and choking on...snot? BUT he didn't have the barking cough anymore or the wheezing, so it was a little better. Hud slept in our room and will continue to do so for the next few days per doctors orders. I spent most of the night sitting on the floor rubbing his back trying to calm him down after he had coughing fits. I think Steve was the only one who got any sleep last night, and for the life of me I can't figure out how!?!?!
The plan for today was to take Hud to the doctor then Steve was going to come home and watch Hud so I could go to the doctor to get labs done and check on Alexis. However, after Hudson's doctor appointment there was no need to go see my OB. Hudson's pediatrician confirmed what I thought. He did have croup and was prescribed more steroids to help, but he did NOT have Fifths Disease. My sweet little boy just had bad eczema and because he was having trouble swallowing and breathing (there was a loot of drool and snot) it was irritating his skin causing the eczema to be horrible. I was so relieved! Hud hadn't been officially diagnosed with eczema before, but I had figured that there was some kind of skin issue going on because of some rashes he would get especially this winter. It was nice to finally get that officially diagnosed.
Hud is still not feeling well, but at least we know how to combat what's going on. I'm hoping that with the additional medication, Hud sleeps better tonight and feels much better tomorrow!
Alexis is doing just fine and I'm exhausted! :) Is it time for bed yet? I sure hope we don't have anymore EXCITING weekends before Alexis gets here. I don't think I can take anymore.....
Thanking God for the diagnoses of Hud and that he is safe and recovering. Thankful for my parents for always being willing to drop everything to help us. Blessed beyond words to have my wonderful Husband (my rock) and our son who makes life worth living. God is sooooo good!
Anyway, we all crashed around 11pm. I kept hearing hud cough over the monitor, but it got really bad around 12:30. When I went up to check on him I realized he was drooling all over himself, his cheeks were sooooo red, he was crying, wheezing, and had a horrible barking cough! It was no longer just a nasty cough that was trying to clear his throat. It was seriously painful to hear. I panicked when I realized he was having trouble breathing and rushed downstairs to get Steve. We all ended up piling into the car and gong to the ER where they determined that he had croup. They also said that he had Fifths Disease. Nothing that wouldn't pass for Hudson, but everyone kept telling me that because I am pregnant there was a potentially serious problem (comforting right?). I really didn't believe he had Fifths Disease because he has been having red rashes on his cheeks on and off for months, but hey, what do I know?!?! I'm just his mom.
The ER doctors gave Hud a steroid to help open his airways, instructed me to contact my OB so I could get tested for Fifths Disease and sent us on our way. We got home a little after 2am. WHY DO THESE THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN AT NIGHT?!?!?
Sunday morning Hud seemed to be improving, but we decided we wouldn't be able to attend a work event that evening for Steve because we didn't want Hud around other kids at the sitters. My parents, being the amazing people they are, informed us that instead of heading home that morning they would stay all day and watch Hud for us so we could go. They are seriously the most giving people on earth and I am so thankful for them.
The work event for Steve was actually a charity dance competition. No, we didn't dance, but we got to watch local celebrities dance and complete for the charity of their choice. It was really fun! We got to sample foods from restaurants all over the city and then we had a fantastic meal too. It really was a fun night! I loved seeing everyone's beautiful dresses/gowns! Even though I am 35 weeks pregnant, I loved getting all dressed up! SO FUN!
When we got home, Hud was still awake and looked horrible! I was so bummbed that he didn't seem to be improving. My parents had to leave and head home so Steve, Hud, and I got prepared for another long night. I finally got Hud to sleep around 10! He woke up a lot during the night coughing and choking on...snot? BUT he didn't have the barking cough anymore or the wheezing, so it was a little better. Hud slept in our room and will continue to do so for the next few days per doctors orders. I spent most of the night sitting on the floor rubbing his back trying to calm him down after he had coughing fits. I think Steve was the only one who got any sleep last night, and for the life of me I can't figure out how!?!?!
The plan for today was to take Hud to the doctor then Steve was going to come home and watch Hud so I could go to the doctor to get labs done and check on Alexis. However, after Hudson's doctor appointment there was no need to go see my OB. Hudson's pediatrician confirmed what I thought. He did have croup and was prescribed more steroids to help, but he did NOT have Fifths Disease. My sweet little boy just had bad eczema and because he was having trouble swallowing and breathing (there was a loot of drool and snot) it was irritating his skin causing the eczema to be horrible. I was so relieved! Hud hadn't been officially diagnosed with eczema before, but I had figured that there was some kind of skin issue going on because of some rashes he would get especially this winter. It was nice to finally get that officially diagnosed.
Hud is still not feeling well, but at least we know how to combat what's going on. I'm hoping that with the additional medication, Hud sleeps better tonight and feels much better tomorrow!
Alexis is doing just fine and I'm exhausted! :) Is it time for bed yet? I sure hope we don't have anymore EXCITING weekends before Alexis gets here. I don't think I can take anymore.....
Thanking God for the diagnoses of Hud and that he is safe and recovering. Thankful for my parents for always being willing to drop everything to help us. Blessed beyond words to have my wonderful Husband (my rock) and our son who makes life worth living. God is sooooo good!
Thursday, February 6, 2014
Dear Alexis
To my daughter Alexis.
Your due date is getting so close! I am both excited and completely terrified at the same time. I can't wait to hold you and kiss your sweet little face. I am so looking forward to being a mommy to a little girl and later best friends. As you probably know, I am extremely close with my mom andhope WISH that we have the same type of relationship as you grow up. I have been a mommy to a little boy for the past almost 3 years and absolutely love it! As a mother to a son, my job is simple. I protect, care for, and love. That is it. It is your daddy's job to teach Hudson how to be a man. My job is just to love the heck out of that little boy. With a little girl (you) I feel some added pressure. That is what I'm mostly scared of....
Sure, I'm a little nervous about your delivery. There are just so many unknowns. Will it be a complete surprise? Will it be quick? Will it be painful...? But your actual birth is just one day. In the grand scheme of things, it is what happens after birth I am most scared of. I feel this responsibility to be a better woman/mother so that I can be an example to you. The past few days I have found myself thinking about all the things my grandma and mom taught me. ex. how to set a table, make a bed, do laundry, put on makeup, how to dress, be kind, compassionate, a good caregiver..... Some of these skills I use on a daily basis. Others I barely remember.
Am I "woman enough" to be a good mother to a little girl?
Alexis, I am not a feminist, but I'm not completely old-fashioned either. I believe as a girl, you can do whatever you put your mind to. I think education is important and if you want to be president of the United States, well, go for it. But if one day you decide that you want to manage a home and family, that's just as wonderful and important. With that being said, I do think it is important to teach you everything I know (remember) about the "old school" ways of womanhood. :)
I want to teach you to take pride in your appearance and at the same time have confidence to be exactly who you are.
I want you to be able to set the table and throw a dinner party while at the same time juggling a hectic work schedule and deadlines (whatever you choose)
I want to teach you compassion, kindness, honestly, integrity, dedication while at the same time teach you to have a voice and an opinion.
All of these things (and more) made me evaluate how I am living. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am scared that I won't be the mother/teacher that you need. I need to make changes to my life so that I can be a good example to you. Does that make any sense?
Alexis, I am so excited for your arrival. Going from a family of three to a family of four is going to be an adjustment, but one we are all looking forward to. I love you so much and hope that when you are 28 and look back at your life you will know just how much I love you. I hope you will love me even though I know I have failed you many times along the way.
Being a parent doesn't mean you are perfect, know everything, or get it right all the time. Being a parent means loving your children and doing what you believe is best for them. One day hopefully you will see that your daddy and I have always wanted what was best for you and tried to make good decisions.
We love you with all our hearts.
Love,
Mommy & Daddy
Your due date is getting so close! I am both excited and completely terrified at the same time. I can't wait to hold you and kiss your sweet little face. I am so looking forward to being a mommy to a little girl and later best friends. As you probably know, I am extremely close with my mom and
Sure, I'm a little nervous about your delivery. There are just so many unknowns. Will it be a complete surprise? Will it be quick? Will it be painful...? But your actual birth is just one day. In the grand scheme of things, it is what happens after birth I am most scared of. I feel this responsibility to be a better woman/mother so that I can be an example to you. The past few days I have found myself thinking about all the things my grandma and mom taught me. ex. how to set a table, make a bed, do laundry, put on makeup, how to dress, be kind, compassionate, a good caregiver..... Some of these skills I use on a daily basis. Others I barely remember.
Am I "woman enough" to be a good mother to a little girl?
Alexis, I am not a feminist, but I'm not completely old-fashioned either. I believe as a girl, you can do whatever you put your mind to. I think education is important and if you want to be president of the United States, well, go for it. But if one day you decide that you want to manage a home and family, that's just as wonderful and important. With that being said, I do think it is important to teach you everything I know (remember) about the "old school" ways of womanhood. :)
I want to teach you to take pride in your appearance and at the same time have confidence to be exactly who you are.
I want you to be able to set the table and throw a dinner party while at the same time juggling a hectic work schedule and deadlines (whatever you choose)
I want to teach you compassion, kindness, honestly, integrity, dedication while at the same time teach you to have a voice and an opinion.
All of these things (and more) made me evaluate how I am living. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am scared that I won't be the mother/teacher that you need. I need to make changes to my life so that I can be a good example to you. Does that make any sense?
Alexis, I am so excited for your arrival. Going from a family of three to a family of four is going to be an adjustment, but one we are all looking forward to. I love you so much and hope that when you are 28 and look back at your life you will know just how much I love you. I hope you will love me even though I know I have failed you many times along the way.
Being a parent doesn't mean you are perfect, know everything, or get it right all the time. Being a parent means loving your children and doing what you believe is best for them. One day hopefully you will see that your daddy and I have always wanted what was best for you and tried to make good decisions.
We love you with all our hearts.
Love,
Mommy & Daddy
Monday, February 3, 2014
34 weeks pregnant and general updates
The past few days have been a breeze. I think last week I just had a bug that was causing me all sorts of problems. Silly me blaming my exhaustion, achy feelings, stuffy nose...on pregnancy. haha I feel great! I'm sleeping pretty well. With Hudson I remember being up all night, most nights. Looking back, I wonder if it was because I was so anxious/nervous about everything (labor, a baby, family dynamics changing). This pregnancy is I feel so much more relaxed. I have a general idea of what to expect during labor and a from a newborn. I'm excited about meeting my baby girl, but I'm enjoying this pregnancy and the short time I have left having an only child.
At 34 weeks, Alexis is doing great. She is moving a lot and I haven't had any other scares. Her favorite time to kick is when I'm getting ready to fall asleep and more when I lay on my left side than right. It's fun, but after a while I start to think she is trying to tell me to roll over because she's uncomfortable or something. hehe Who knows!
I STILL haven't packed my hospital bag. I don't know why I can't make myself do it yet! Even though I haven't packed my bag, I'm getting a lot ready for Alexis! I have been picking up adorable baby clothes! Baby clothes are sooooo cute!
I go to the doctor tomorrow and am anticipating a quick and easy checkup. Ill update once I get Alexis' stats.
UPDATE
All is well! My Blood pressure looked good. Alexis' heart rate was great. I'm measuring "perfectly". The only thing was that they found white blood cells in my urine which can indicate an infection. I have no symptoms and they were not concerned at all, so I guess it means everything is great. :)
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Hud slept in his big boy bed for the first time last night. HE DID GREAT! It took him a while to fall asleep, but once he was out, he slept all night long. I did go check on him a few times though to shift him and cover him with his blanket. When he woke up, he was happy and ready to start the day! It is unreal how much I love this little guy. AHHHHHH
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This past weekend Steve's brother's family was in town. We all met in Cincinnati to take Hudson, Andrew, and John to the Aquarium. It was so crowded, but really fun. Hudson couldn't have been more excited to see his cousins! After the aquarium we all went to dinner. Hudson's grammy gave him some fun gifts from her recent trip to the Caribbean. She was all tan...It made me want to take a nice beach vacation. Maybe some day. :)
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Here are just some recent pictures of Hud doing his thing. :)
At 34 weeks, Alexis is doing great. She is moving a lot and I haven't had any other scares. Her favorite time to kick is when I'm getting ready to fall asleep and more when I lay on my left side than right. It's fun, but after a while I start to think she is trying to tell me to roll over because she's uncomfortable or something. hehe Who knows!
I STILL haven't packed my hospital bag. I don't know why I can't make myself do it yet! Even though I haven't packed my bag, I'm getting a lot ready for Alexis! I have been picking up adorable baby clothes! Baby clothes are sooooo cute!
This is the outfit I plan on bringing Alexis home in.
I go to the doctor tomorrow and am anticipating a quick and easy checkup. Ill update once I get Alexis' stats.
UPDATE
All is well! My Blood pressure looked good. Alexis' heart rate was great. I'm measuring "perfectly". The only thing was that they found white blood cells in my urine which can indicate an infection. I have no symptoms and they were not concerned at all, so I guess it means everything is great. :)
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Hud slept in his big boy bed for the first time last night. HE DID GREAT! It took him a while to fall asleep, but once he was out, he slept all night long. I did go check on him a few times though to shift him and cover him with his blanket. When he woke up, he was happy and ready to start the day! It is unreal how much I love this little guy. AHHHHHH
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This past weekend Steve's brother's family was in town. We all met in Cincinnati to take Hudson, Andrew, and John to the Aquarium. It was so crowded, but really fun. Hudson couldn't have been more excited to see his cousins! After the aquarium we all went to dinner. Hudson's grammy gave him some fun gifts from her recent trip to the Caribbean. She was all tan...It made me want to take a nice beach vacation. Maybe some day. :)
Our little family of 3 (soon to be 4) at the aquarium. Not the best picture, but hey....
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Here are just some recent pictures of Hud doing his thing. :)
Hud is definitely his daddy's son! haha That's MY cereal bowl, but as soon as I left the table he got right up there to finish off my milk! haha
Have I mentioned that Hudson LOVES trains?!?! They make him so happy!
Sunday, February 2, 2014
BIG BOY BED
Well, it's Super Bowl Sunday and I'm writing.... what does that tell you about the game!?!?! It's horrible and sad, mostly because the team I want to win hasn't even scored and it's well into the second half. O-well. We had a pretty exciting/milestone day today.
Today, Steve and I put together (bought, assembled, washed....) Hudson's BIG BOY BED! I am dying a little inside! How can my "baby" be old enough for a big bed? Even though we have bed rails, I'm completely terrified that Hud is going to wiggle and roll right out of bed. It is a really tall bed too, so I have a feeling that I won't get much sleep tonight. I'll be watching him on his little monitor and/or sleeping outside his door. O heck, I might just crawl into that massive bed with him (not really...). Anyway, Hudson slept in it really well during his nap. He was not too thrilled at first and really put up a fight, but passed out quickly and slept like a champ. He has some pillows, and I let him use them during his nap, but I started thinking that maybe that wasn't safe???? When is it ok to let a child sleep with a pillow? It made me really nervous. Hudson did fine with it, but I just kept having these horrible thoughts about him suffocating himself in his sleep.... I don't think as a mom you ever stop worrying. Tonight he doesn't have any pillows. I took them all off his bed and laid them on the floor around his bed so if he falls out he will land on pillows. haha
As I type I'm watching Hud on the monitor and he is NOT sleeping. At first it looked like he was going to, but now he's talking and rolling around. hummmmmm..... on the plus side of having a bed that is high off the ground, Hud can't figure out how to get down/doesn't want to by himself.
That's it. My excitement for the weekend. My little boy is growing up and no matter what I do, I can't make time stop. Hudson is the sweetest little boy and I am so thankful and blessed that I get to be his mommy.
Ok, I'm going to go re-tuck the little stinker in. He has managed to wiggle and roll to the end of his bed!
Today, Steve and I put together (bought, assembled, washed....) Hudson's BIG BOY BED! I am dying a little inside! How can my "baby" be old enough for a big bed? Even though we have bed rails, I'm completely terrified that Hud is going to wiggle and roll right out of bed. It is a really tall bed too, so I have a feeling that I won't get much sleep tonight. I'll be watching him on his little monitor and/or sleeping outside his door. O heck, I might just crawl into that massive bed with him (not really...). Anyway, Hudson slept in it really well during his nap. He was not too thrilled at first and really put up a fight, but passed out quickly and slept like a champ. He has some pillows, and I let him use them during his nap, but I started thinking that maybe that wasn't safe???? When is it ok to let a child sleep with a pillow? It made me really nervous. Hudson did fine with it, but I just kept having these horrible thoughts about him suffocating himself in his sleep.... I don't think as a mom you ever stop worrying. Tonight he doesn't have any pillows. I took them all off his bed and laid them on the floor around his bed so if he falls out he will land on pillows. haha
As I type I'm watching Hud on the monitor and he is NOT sleeping. At first it looked like he was going to, but now he's talking and rolling around. hummmmmm..... on the plus side of having a bed that is high off the ground, Hud can't figure out how to get down/doesn't want to by himself.
That's it. My excitement for the weekend. My little boy is growing up and no matter what I do, I can't make time stop. Hudson is the sweetest little boy and I am so thankful and blessed that I get to be his mommy.
Ok, I'm going to go re-tuck the little stinker in. He has managed to wiggle and roll to the end of his bed!
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