Ahhhhh It seems like everywhere I turn I see babies! I know so many people who are getting ready to have a little bundle of joy or are just now announcing to the world that in 9 months they will be adding to their families! This is starting to cause some mild feelings of baby fever!
On one hand, I LOVE BABIES. They are so little and cute and cuddly! They have adorable clothes and always smell so good.
But on the other hand, I LOVE HUDSON more than anything and can't imagine being able to love another baby as much as I love him. He requires so much attention and love (and I don't mind giving him 100%) so it is hard to imagine having more than one. How would Hudson react to a little brother or sister? Also, there is the issue of sleep. It seems like Hudson just started sleeping through the night consistently (even though it has probably been happening for a couple of months) and I'm not sure I'm ready to be back in the no sleep zone. I might just loose my mind.... (my hair will turn gray and Steve will have to have me admitted).
And then there is the actual pregnancy... I have come to realize that as a pregnant person, I am a monster! Steve seriously should have shipped me off somewhere for 9 months. I become an emotional, irrational, nauseous, exhausted, angry, woman who EATS EVERYTHING SHE SEES! Not pretty. How would I handle the morning (all day) sickness AND take care of Hudson? This is selfish, Yes. But I am just now (after a year) starting to look like myself again. I fit into my old clothes (well, some of them) and am not ready to give them up again. I'm afraid the next time I get pregnant my body might change so much that I will NEVER be able to get into my old clothes.
So much to think about.
I do want Hudson to be close to his sibling(s)...
How on earth do you know when the time is right for baby #2?
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