Perspective

Well, it turns out, it really IS all about perspective.

Lately I have found myself completely overwhelmed.  Things that should be enjoyable and fun have turned into huge stresses in my life.  After a lot of thinking and self inspection, I realized that my problem wasn't necessarily everything that is happening all at once in my life.  It is how I am choosing to look at all these things.

I found that the "stress" of moving was really outweighing my excitement about our new home.  Why?  Because I was focusing on how difficult everything seemed to be getting.

I realized that my fear of flying was really taking away from this trip coming up.  Why? I came to the conclusion that God has a plan for my life.  If it is my time, do I really think that I can avoid it?  Weather it is a plane, a car, a heart attack or a giant asteroid lands on me in my sleep, if it is/was Gods will, it will happen no matter what precautionary measures I try to take.  Also, How ridiculous is it that there are people I care about who are facing SERIOUS issues and I am paralyzed at the mere thought of taking a particular form of widely used transportation?  How did my perspective on life get so screwed up?

When you are complete control freak like me, and life seems to be pretty perfect, you don't want to take any chances because you are afraid your life will fall apart..  No, my life isn't perfect, but looking at the BIG picture, I have so much to be thankful for.  I am in a good place and I am happy.  Can life really be good and last?

Well, God doesn't work like that.  Life has it's ups and downs.  It is pretty much guaranteed that there will be sadness and struggle.  There is just no way around it.  So, you have to decide how you are going to live knowing that sometimes bad things just happen for no good reason (or so it seems).  It's about perspective and attitude.  Do you live life in a vacuum for fear that any disruption will send your almost perfect life into a tailspin?  Or, do you "Accept the things you cannot change" and actually LIVE?  Tomorrow isn't guaranteed no matter how much or how little risk you take.  It's important to make the most out of every day we have on this earth, because time here is short. 

Ok, I'm done with this rant.  It just feels so good to get that off my chest.  After all this thinking, I can't tell you how much more relaxed I am and how much more at peace I am.

Thanks for letting me go on and on....