Im going crazy!

Well, It's official.  I have become a crazy, neurotic, obsessive, hypochondriac, worry wart!!!  With all that happened with Hudson and me over the past few weeks, every little thing sends me flying off the deep end.  My doctor is going to HATE me by the end of this pregnancy! 

Last night I started feeling more cramping, and then a dull pain that comes and goes.  This morning I was still feeling it.  Also, I haven't felt Hudson moving as much lately, which I'm sure is normal...  Anyway, after yet another call to the nurses triage line at my OBGYN's office (this week alone I have called 3 times) I am heading in for ANOTHER doctors appointment here in about 30 minutes.  Hopefully they will tell me everything is fine, and that I just need to mellow out, relax, and stop being so crazy!  They could literally call me crazy, and I wouldn't be phased at this point.  I think I just need my own personal doctor to come live at my house for the next few months so I can have them at my beck and call to answer all my questions and ease my mind. 

IS BEING CRAZY ANOTHER SYMPTOM OF PREGNANCY???????

Inspiration

Dear Hudson,

As you grow up, I hope to teach you many things.  One of the most important things I hope to show/teach you is compassion.  There is a poem that I found when I was little and have held it near and dear to my heart ever since.  I truly believe that you should always be looking for ways to better the world around you, help others when you can, and be kind.  Everyone is having trouble with something in their life, and you never know how a small act of kindness can brighten someone's day.  I hope that you become the type of person who is always looking for an opportunity to do something nice for someone else.  Take action!  Don't procrastinate.  Always do your best.  It doesn't have to be earth shattering, just letting someone know that you care can be enough.  Be true to yourself and do what you know in your heart is right!  I know you will make me proud, because I know you are a good person.  I love you so much my sweet boy!

Love,
Your adoring mom

The Sin of Omission

by: Margaret E. Sangster

It isn’t the thing you do, dear,
Its the thing you leave undone
That gives you a bit of a heartache
At setting of the sun.
The tender work forgotten,
The letter you did not write,
The flowers you did not send, dear,
Are your haunting ghosts at night.

The stone you might have lifted
Out of a brother’s way;
The bit of heartsome counsel
You were hurried too much to say;
The loving touch of the hand, dear,
The gentle, winning tone
Which you had no time nor thought for
With troubles enough of your own.

Those little acts of kindness
So easily out of mind,
Those chances to be angels
Which we poor mortals find

They come in night and silence,
Each sad, reproachful wraith,
When hope is faint and flagging,
And a chill has fallen on faith.

For life is all too short, dear,
And sorrow is all to great,
To suffer our slow compassion
That tarries until too late:
And it isn’t the thing you do, dear,
It’s the thing you leave undone
Which gives you a bit of heartache
At the setting of the sun.

Hudson's Nursery!!!!

 
I am one happy mama to be!  At 23 weeks 3 days, Hudson's nursery is practically done (minus a few decorations here and there)!  I am so relieved that all the BIG jobs are finished!  This past weekend was a whirl wind!  It went by so fast!  My wonderful parents came in town Saturday around 11:00am.  While Steve and my dad moved furniture and wiped down the walls, my mom and I ran to Sherwin-Williams to pick up the paint and supplies.  Earlier I posted some paint color options we were looking at.  I wasn't really excited about any of the colors we had found.  So, mom and I were browsing at some other options when an interior designer (who was there with another client) came over, looked at Hudson's bedding and pulled a paint card out saying "This color would be perfect".  Mom and I were ecstatic!!!  The color was PERFECT!!!  It wasn't even close to the colors I had been looking at.  How lucky are we?!?  The color is called Languid Blue.  It is more gray than bright baby blue and it is awesome! 

You can really see the difference in the color we ended up choosing and the colors we were looking at.  The new color work so much better with the bedding!  I just love it!

Once the painting started, I was not allowed to be in the room.  My parents are so cute!  They are so protective of me and Hudson.  It is hard for me to let other people do things for me.  I'm not going to lie, I got yelled at by my parents a few times this weekend for trying to jump in and help move things or paint....   It is just so hard to watch other people working so hard and not do anything.  I am so thankful I have such wonderful parents who offered to paint Hudson's room for us. 

My parents (Grandma and Grandpa Smith) painting the nursery.  My dad is wearing his Father's Day gift from a year ago!  haha He says it helps him see better when he does the edging!  

My dad did all the edging!

My mom did all the rolling!  

While mom and dad were working hard painting, Steve was in the basement working with some of his man toys, and Jessica and I were watching a movie on TV.  It was a great day!

Steve had an audience while he was working!

After the painting was done, my dad and Steve moved the furniture back and hung Hudson's adorable curtains!  I couldn't be happier with how his nursery turned out!  We couldn't have done it with out my parents!  I am so lucky to have such a wonderful family! 

 

Mom fixing the curtains and doing the finishing touches!

Our other baby liked Hudson's bed too!!!  Otis snuck in the room without us knowing and this is where we found him.

Steve and I could not be more pleased with how Hudson's room turned out!  It is better than we could have ever imagined.  Now all we need is our sweet baby boy to get here, not for another 15 weeks or so though!  Here is a before picture of the Nursery!

Before AND....

TA DA!!!!

I just can't get over how AMAZING Hudson's room turned out!  Thanks mom and dad, or should I say Grandma and Grandpa!   I love you both so much!  Hudson is so lucky to have such wonderful and loving grandparents!

My parents standing in front of their handiwork!

After a long day of hard work, we met up with Steve's mom (Grandma Farmer) and headed to dinner at Halls!  It was a beautiful evening!  We dined for 2 hours on fried pickles and banana peppers, bear cheese, hush-puppies, and other fried foods!  It was the perfect end to the perfect day! 

My parents are getting ready to go on a vacation, so this week Steve and I will have a house guest!  

Aren't they so cute!!!!  Sadie loves having Rocky here to play with!

Well, the house is a bit of a mess after this weekend, but that is OK with me!  I have the next few weeks to clean, clean, and clean some more.  At least all the big stuff is done!  After everyone cleared out, I spent a long time just sitting in Hudson's room looking at everything and thinking about all the great times to come!  I thought about Hudson's birthday, Thanksgiving, and getting ready and celebrating Hudson's first Christmas... We are so lucky to have such wonderful families and great support system!  We have so much to be thankful for.  

Well Hello 23 Weeks!

Hudson,

You are a big mover these days and I LOVE it!  You move all the time, but especially in the evenings.  I have herd that you have a sleep schedule now.  From about 5-10 must be your awake time!  haha  Today I was sitting on the couch and you started kicking like crazy.  So, I lifted my shirt up just above my belly and for the first time I could see your movements!  IT WAS AMAZING!  I yelled for your daddy, but as soon as he got close, you stopped!  I think you are just trying to keep your kicks our little secret for now!  Pretty soon though, you need to let your daddy feel you kick.  He has been waiting so patiently...

You are now almost a foot long and weigh a little over a pound!  I can't even believe it!  Some websites compare you to a mango and others an ear of corn!  It's hard to believe you are so big already!  It feels like just yesterday I was talking to my mom (your grandma) about you being 3 inches long and getting rid of your tail (starting took look human).  It is truly amazing!  Your sense of movement is also pretty well developed.  According to all the baby websites and books, when I move around you can feel it.  Last night I sat in your room and rocked you in your glider for about 30 minutes.  You really seemed to like the rocking motion.  Hope you like it when you are out too.

This past week I have found sleep to be difficult to get.  Between the increasingly more frequent potty breaks, leg cramps, and sore arms, hips and shoulders... it is impossible to get a full night sleep.  I still haven't noticed any stretchmarks, but the belly is getting pretty big!  My belly button is getting closer and closer to popping.  Ahhhhhh  I have gained a total of 15 pounds since the beginning of this pregnancy and am on track to gain a grand total of about 30!  It sounds like a lot to me, but my doctor seems to think that it's pretty good.  My blood pressure seems to be good so far too.  I still haven't herd anything about the glucose test.  According to other moms  that should be coming up soon....  We will see!  

This weekend, your Grandma and Grandpa Smith are coming to paint your nursery.  They offered to purchase the paint and do the work soon after we found out about you!  Its hard to believe the day is already here.  We are still not 100% sure on a paint color, but between your grandparents, aunt, your daddy and I, I'm sure we will make a decision that works!  Your Grandparents are also going to help me hang your curtains and wash some of your baby clothes and bedding.  Your room is almost done!!! 

I recently found out that there will be a total of three baby showers held in your honor!!!  We will be having a family shower for your daddy's side of the family, a friend shower, and a shower back where I am from with family and friends from my hometown!!!!  What a lucky little baby you are!  I'm so excited and can't wait to celebrate you! 

22 weeks 6 days Doctor's Appointment

Today was ANOTHER doctor's appointment day!  After the events that took place this past weekend, my doctor thought it best to have an ultrasound done to make sure everything was ok.  She wanted my cervix measured to see if the contractions I had been having were causing any problems.  After having the exam done, it was determined that my cervix is measuring short.  Apparently it is supposed to be between 2.5 and 3 inches long and mine is right at 2.5.  So, my doctor has told me to take it easy eliminating all unnecessary standing, exercising, lifting....  I am not on bed rest at this point, but I have to go back in two weeks to repeat the exam.  If I am not measuring any better my doctor said we will have to take a more proactive approach because a short cervix can cause preterm labor. Ahhhhh

After getting that news, I feel so worried!!!  My little man just needs to stay put for now!  He's not done cooking! 

In other news I have gained 6 lbs since last month and a grand total of 15lbs!!!!  I still don't know what I started at and what I weigh now, but I do know I'm doing good so far!  Also, Hudson's heart rate is 138!  He is a little mover and shaker!  It just makes me so happy!  I am so thankful that Hudson is a healthy little guy!!!